This shit is hard. Believing in something so much, working so hard for 10 years to make it become a reality, and still struggling to make it work has been the biggest test of my willpower. It would be so easy to quit. To give up. To throw in the towel. But I can't. And I won't.
Last month, I attended a fitness convention for the gym that I work at part time. I sat in the crowd, listening to all of the "new additions" into online training that the big box gym plans to implement. I crumpled into my seat. I slowly retreated. I may have even brushed away a few tears. This brand new online training module that the gym plans to launch is the "new craze." It's "never been done before," and it's "cutting edge." As I listened closely, I shrunk even more. My confidence sank. My soul got crushed that day.
For the past 6 years, I have put my heart and soul, and every resource that I have, into building the best damn online fitness training program I could possibly create. For 6 years, I've been building, from the ground up, the Trainer In Your Back Pocket (TBP) program. I spend every moment innovating a program that combines not only fitness workouts, but nutrition and wellness, mindset and accountability, and most importantly community. So, to sit in the crowd, and hear that "it's never been done before" left me feeling a little less than worthy.
I thought it would pass. I thought the feeling of being a small bug getting squashed by the big corporations would lessen. But it didn't. What the F* am I doing? Why bother pushing, hustling, when, 6 years later, it hasn't rewarded me (financially)? I'm no fitness model. I'm no Social Media guru. I'm just me; a slightly overweight lover of improving my health, exercising, and living a healthy, inspired life. Luckily I have two educational degrees to back up my passion and knowledge for health and fitness.
Well, enough is enough. I needed a perspective change this week. It was time to swap my focus from being a squashed bug, to helping those who want my help. If I was in this for the money, I'd have given up 5 years ago. The Trainer In Your Back Pocket (TBP) is so much more than a paycheck. It's my chance to help spread health to a sick, unhappy, and unhealthy world. I must keep pressing on. My dreams for this program are to help so many more people find their true powerful greatness within.
So, in order to force a perspective change, I pulled out the trusty white board in my office, and began creating a list of all the great additions to the TBP program that I implemented this year, and all of the things I want to add to the program next year. As the list grew, my mindset began to change. Holy moly, I did a ton this year! I added so much value to the already value-filled TBP program. Not only did I implement the coolest training tool yet, the MYZONE fitness tracker, but I put together so many bonus programs, like Awesome Abs April, Amazing Arms August, March Madness, the TBP Travel-Fit-Kit, and the 100 Woman Blood Sugar Project. I was busy! This is on top of all the content that I create and provide each month with the monthly workout plans, weekly workout videos, nutrition challenges, and wellness challenges. As I made my lists on the white board, I also got inspired to create some new projects for 2018, and I can see the great value in the upcoming year ahead. It was just the motivational push from behind, and inspirational "carrot" into the future, that I needed to turn off the self-doubt.
So, if the big box gym wants to do their thing, BRING IT! The Trainer In Your Back Pocket is the place where everyday people can come to feel connected, loved, inspired, and know that they are getting the best damn fitness and nutrition advice out there.
So, with that long rant, I want to send lots of love to you all, and a million thank you to my TBP tribe who supports the Trainer In Your Back Pocket program year after year. You guys are the reason I continue!
Abby Malmstrom M.S., a.k.a. The Trainer In Your Back Pocket, is an exercise physiologist, certified personal trainer, group fitness instructor, wellness coach, and "real food" nutritionist. Her life as an active duty military spouse takes her all over the world, allowing her to influence, teach, and connect with folks in communities she never even dreamed of reaching. Life's an adventure, so join Abby for the ride! It's time to "Eat Well, Move Well, Think Well, Be Well."